DRIPPING WINDMILLS (Serbian Original Included)
“For tomorrow you will live forever”
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Snatch your mind from the clutches of the wolves
That have been observing and watching you
And fasten it with quiet dignity
Snatch it with a torrent of your body
Then wipe the sweat off your brow
While the beasts lure away
And may it be your last address
Your last stronghold before the voices of the buffoons
That boom at first
To make a pharynx out of your ears
So they could vomit cosily and instinctively
All over you
While glorifying the spiteful noise of theirs
And bursting with exultation
Herds of pigs look forward to your fall
But you just mute the miserable noise
Of their shameful fermentation
With no laughter appease those who’d like to
Sit on your head
Who would snarl then
Shamelessly accepting
The last cadaver out of the darkness
May the redness of a total autumn flood you
Of an autumn tearful and adored
Confronted in the dusk with the secrets of shadows
And then all will pass
Just take a little breath of fresh air
And rip out their Secret with your ears.
Let them scream
Helpless and empty
Finally.
And while they’re grabbing you
You break loose with your teeth
With your nails
And you foam and keep on pushing them
With your elbows
With all this stuff
Past and future
For the sake of your time that is arriving
And overcoming them
Your deed will extol you
Like a spark of kindling wood
Which haunts the serpents tails
When driest is your mouth
And thirst torments you
And you’re starving
It’s them
Them who
Brooding over your head
Await the last wind that will
Bring the cry out of your throat
And they’ll feast then
Peacefully and self-admiringly
Over your carrion
Don’t you let them do that.
Instead, quarter their bull heads
Make them fly away
Let them merge with that
Treasonous air
Oh, did they sway you once
Upon a time
While you languished in hopelessness
While heart of yours was starless
Then, when you suffered
Assigning them your word
At their mouths, you looked
And you shrieked and teetered
Consumed by hangover
And they ploughed your throat while
Their unskilled hands chanted hollowly
Writing lyrics with your own blood
Never let them do that again
You just silence that greedy mob of pigs
Which calls itself a pack
Mountain wolves they call themselves
And for your glory of tomorrow
After all the hushed-up vileness
The One that never dies will take care of
The One that resides in your deed
Like a chaste bride
For tomorrow you will live forever
And a fog will devour the bulls
The burden of time will blow to smithereens
All those thieves anchors and gory pits
Those growing arms that are grabbing your sleeve
And pulling you
Browsing the back on which youre laying
Coiled and voiceless
Time will doom them
With your new verses
It will write on the crown of their heads
And point a finger right in their eye
Because they should have never
Attacked a dragon
Those shameless plucked eagles
And the living fire of your proud spirit
Will swallow them with all their
Confidence
While you climb in the solitude of prayer
Reaching the uttermost cognition
God, Himself will save you from the evildoers
Ill-fated hearts
Don’t you shed a single tear
Don’t let a sound escape from your lips
Rejoice because you’re a poet
And Gods inspired you for eternity
You will live when there’s no more roars
And in the darkest night, you will live
And you will breathe peacefully
And you will love.
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SERBIAN:
Otrgni svoj um iz kandži vukova
što te snatre i motre
I zakuj ga tišinom dostojanstva
Otrgni ga bujicom tela
Potom obriši znoj sa čela
dok se zveri ne odmame
I neka to bude tvoje poslednje obraćanje
I uporište pred lakrdijaškim glasovima što počinju
Najpre huktajući
da ti od ušiju prave ždrelo
Za njihovo prijazno nagonsko povraćanje
Po tebi
Dok veličaju svoju gadnu buku
i kipte od slavlja
Raduju se krda svinja tvome padu
Al’ utišaj tu žalosnu buku
stidnoga im vrenja
Smiri bez smeha pomahnitale koji bi
Na glavu da ti sednu
I na njoj da reže dok zadnji leš tmina primaju bez stida
Nek te oblije crvenilo potpune jeseni koja beše ti plačna i obožavana
U sumrak pred tajnama seni
Dok to ne prođe
Samo malo udahni vazduha svežeg
I ušima iščupaj Tajnu njihovu.
Neka zavrište nemoćni i prazni
Konačno.
I dok te ščepaju
Otrgni se zubima noktima
Zapeni, guraj ih
Laktovima svim stvarima
pređašnjim i budućim
Za tvoje vreme koje nadolazi
i nadilazi ih
Tvoje će delo da te veliča
kao kap netom zapaljene luči
što prži repove zmija
Kad su ti usta najsuvlja
I žeđ te mori i od gladi
skapava duša tvoja
To oni
To oni zamišljeni nad tvojom glavom
Iščekuju poslednji vetar kojim će ti probiti krik iz grla
I večeraće spokojni i sobom zadivljeni
Nad tvojom lešinom
Ne daj im da to učine
Raščereči im bikovske glave
neka polete
I neka se stope zajedno
sa izdajničkim vazduhom
Jednom te pokolebaše
dok bejaše ti bez nade
I bez zvezda u srcu
dok si samo patio izgovaravši im reč
Usta si im gledao dok si vrištao i srljao u mamurluku
I riljali su ti po grlu dok su pojali svoje nevešte ruke
Krvlju tvojom
Nek ne čine to opet
Utišaj tu gramzivu rulju svinja
Koja sebe čoporom naziva
I planinskim vucima
A za tvoju sutrašnju slavu nakon prećutkivanja svih podlosti
Brinuće onaj koji nikad ne umire
I u tvome delu sedi
kao čedna nevesta
Ti zauvek sutra živ ćeš biti
Poješće magla bikove
Razneće breme vremena
Ta lopovska sidra i krvave jame
Te rastuće ruke koje ti ščepaju rukav i vuku te
Koje ti brste leđa na kojima ležiš
u muku savijen
Vreme će im sudbinu ukleti
tvojim stihovima novim
Zapisaće im na temenu
Uperiće im prst pravo u oko
Da nisu smeli na zmaja nasrtati
Te orlušine bez stida
i tako pouzdane
Spaliće ih vatra živa
tvog gordoga duha
U samoći molitve dok se uspinješ
ka svome saznanju
Sam bog će te spasti od zlotvora tuđih hudih srca
Ni kap suze ne ispusti da potekne
Ni glasa ne ispusti
Raduj se jer si pesnik
I od bogova nadahnut stvor za večna vremena
Živećeš i kad ne bude bilo urlika
I kad noć bude najmračnija
Živećeš
I disaćeš spokojno i volećeš